It is what it is and life is what you make of it for yourself. Others can be understanding of you or they can choose to disregard whatever information would help them to better understand you. Choosing to pass judgment rather than accept, choosing to judge rather than understand. That’s apart of life, not everyone is going to be on your team in life, for whatever reasons, will choose reasons or even sometimes make up their own reasons for why you are the way you are and why you are mentally challenged & struggling in life not successful. It’s really no one’s business how fast you grow. It’s no one’s business how much you make. It’s no one’s business what you do with your life, and it’s no one’s business what makes you suicidal. To each his own. The only thing you have control over are your own thoughts and what you choose to make of your life, with or without anyone’s acceptance of you, is not required to live a disciplined & successful life.